Dear Readers,
2015 has been a mix of pain, love and much growth but all for a positive outcome. I am finally at a place in life that as long as my kids are happy and well taken care of that's all that matters and anything else or anyone is just a pleasant bonus. Now i have a lot of reminders of stupid things i've done along the way, shit other have done to me and the same amount of good memories. I don't regret 2015, because it made me stronger and a lot more smarter so, I can play the game like an OG.LOL.
I just hope to never go back in life but instead move on for the better and help other along the way because whats the fun of being alone at top? I know by now who is down to ride for me and who isn't and what i can bring to the table. I am still seeking that romantic fairy tale ( but hush its a secret) but i'm giving myself an age time and thats 30. If i don't find a man who will sweep me off my feet and be the one then screw it lol, ill stay alone and accept my fate.
But on a good note Bryson Tiller has saved my soul with his music and everything I listen to him its like, he is ugly but man i can relate to him lol, why do i think like this?? My sephora addiction is worse then ever but it makes me so happy. I mean like real bad but its like everytime i go, i feel like a little kid at a toy store.
My boys have made a lot of great strides in their lives. The little on is talking more and understanding english. Yes, his head is still big but he is my little sea turtle :). He is the most sweetest thing ever and just like the first one saved my life, this one saved me again. Now my oldest is so much like me in every aspect and well sometimes not in appearance but attitude? imagination? ADHD? level of annoying? Yup, got it from his mama. I love him like he would never understand. But I am hard on him only because I don't want no one to ever take advantage of him, since he is such a social bee. But he is so smart and loves sports and his knowledge at times shocks people but I wouldn't want him no other way.
Ive lost some friends along the way, made some new friends and reconnected with old ones all in one year but I have a hell of grasp on who will be there for me when i NEED some one. Like everyone says, everything happens for a reason. I just hope and pray that the real ones, the ones i need and want will follow me into 2016. If not then, hey bye boy/girl... lol
To be honest im so ready to start 2016 with a positive view and just goals. I want to be able to succeed and help everyone around me as well. I hope to be a way better mama pear to my boys, finally have my house back, learn to be along finally and just enjoy every moment. I am going to work on making the gym a daily thing, eating better and just being a better me in general. Anything is possible when there is a will but i will tone down a drink or two lol.
Well I do promise to blogg more, but dont know why but it makes people life. Also I am going to learn to do the " cant do it like me " and post a video lol. I can check off already " hit the quan" my list.
So, my lovely people may you find happiness, peace, money, anything your heart desires and just be fucking happy! Brush it off and keep it pushing.
LOVE PEAR 12/31/2015
P>S im growing my hair out... ayyeee watch out :)
some funnies below :) enjoy
( when i was an inca model.. LMAO bagels you aint the only one)
( my old team, on halloween, hats made by yours truly)
( My right hand woman, and some ratchet girls night )
( I swear this is me, but some only can accept me like this lol)
( Their smiles, cures my heart everytime )
( My favorite dish.. found only at the korean diner)
(when boredom strikes and i get cray)
( my baby romo)
( throw back LMAO)
( THE CREW)
( find the baby)
( this sounds messed up but when i wanted to see if i had no hair because of a medical condition)
( my kind of donuts ...chinese ones )
( i hate that blazer, gave it to my mom)
( famous sleep selfie, yeah im that good)
( lazy bro bro day)
( i love my labios... google it)
( im so cute and tiny... mini )
( my Sky)
( all my boys!!! )
( W>C chilling)
( Milf?)
( never again... god i was fatter)
( POSOLE made by dre, bang)
( first time he ever took his time to do something and was proud)
( hola?)
( the night that changed my head for life , literally)
( the next morning)
( my first hair cut done by myself duh )
( my muslim look)
( my homeless look)
( then i found my fav. costume)
( then i compared and realized i never lose weight)
( accepting my new forced look)
( Joliiiiieee)
( hola :))
( great night on main street)
( our present that never made it home)
( we stylish or naw)
( kim P )
( bano selfie of course)
( first timers)
( my wcw)
( dirty 30)
( vday )
( my fav)
( gender party )
( the love)
( some more of my ideas )
( feburary bdays )
( pinterest ideas)
( stash it)
( home made dice)
( my big head baby)
( i dont know)
( RIP IVAN)
( another Pinterest)
( Poof)
the boys
the cousins
my baby dino
a cute moment
that dino
dino love
bday
que?
my bunny butt
my painting bday
my water banging
our pups... ela somewhere
yum
for my mia
ratch
natalie's wedding
hi ela, she has down syn.
beach life
that fly boy
watermmmmmmmmelon
we cant get it together
baby bun
viva
Penny
my loves
he always hooks us up .. love ya bro
forehead selfie
HEYPEAR
My 75 % rican, %25 sweets man
HOPE IT GETS BETTER .. whomp
